insecurity

today i thought... i want to start my very own blog. and then i was overwelmed with the fear of other people reading my thoughts. would i be cool enough? RAGE! why does it matter? why do i care what anyone else thinks. this constant battle of trying to just be ok with me. accept yourself. love yourself. its ok. God loves you. you can love you too. but then there is this underlying desire to be clever and unique while at the same time ordinary so that i am not noticed. is anyone else this strange? it would be hard to believe, but then again i know that we are all in this battle on some level. confusion overcomes me...