overwhelmed
this seems to be the word i use most often to describe myself lately.
overwhelmed.
i am either overwhelmed by God's goodness or the amazing love he has for me or the amazing friends i have.
or i am overwhelmed by the decisions i need to make or the confusion racing around in my head or my heart.
today i feel overwhelmed in both senses. the good and the bad, that is.
thankfully the good overwhemledness is winning.
my heart is smiling. i am happy overall.
i am blessed by the amazing people God has graced my life with. so many great friends i have. so many people who love me so well, so deeply. and guess what, i love all of them too. love for everyone.
love...
love...
love.
and yet as i write the word love i think, what is love? do i really know/understand what love is? is there a different kind of love for different kinds of people. and, why do we only have one word for love in the english language? because obviously we don't love our family and friends the same way we love our favorite foods or our pets, or the same way we love someone romantically. when we are called to love our neighbor, what kind of love is that?
is life filled with only questions? this is another whole train of thought. someone told me the other day that if God allows us to have so many questions, it only seems right that he would allow us the answers at some point. hum... i don't know. all i do know is that when allowed to spew out my thoughts on paper or on this blog i suppose, most of what comes to mind is questions, questions, questions.
ok, i think that is enough for now.
posted by erin @ 11:14 AM
2 comments
2 Comments:
Erin you have good thoughts... "eternity is set in the hearts of men." This verse from the meaningless teacher often satisfies my longing for answers. And sometimes, honestly, the questions are sweeter than the answers. Embrace mystery, wonder and the vastness of God and somehow the overwhelmingness (I’ve graduated I can make up words) of life will be lost and the purpose and beauty of life will begin. I like what Ravi Zacharias says;
"Our sense of wonder is a blessing from God given so that we would be continually amazed at His beauty and creation. But for many of us, our wonder has diminished through the years, and we doubt that we’ll ever be able to experience the overwhelming sense of awe we once had as children. Our minds tell us that enhancement is childish, while our hearts yearn to rediscover this very childlike sense of wonder. So the question is, can life be in tune with reality and also be enchanting without being escapist? - Recapture the Wonder
you are awesome Erin.
thanks allan. i hope you know that i also think you are awesome. keep on rockin'
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