ramblings of the cold

it sit here with what i can only assume is a caffeine headache. i haven't had any coffee yet today. i don't feel funky, i just feel headachy. that and i keep yawning uncontrollably. yet still i haven't gotten up to make coffee. i don't particularly claim to be addicted. i mean i LOVE it. warm fuzzies, yes. but somedays i just don't want it, then frustration sets in because it seems i need it. and yes, i do get enough sleep.

does anyone else realize that it is almost 2005? i'm sorta freaked out by this. not because i don't think that 2004 has been a good year, i'm sure it has.. (sadly i can't remember much that happened before about july. i plan to sit down sometime and try to remember the years highlights and lowlights.) but i seriously think that somehow time has slipped by extremely quickly. argh! its ok.

i'm not exceptionally excited about the onset of winter. i'm not so sad about snow because it's really pretty. i'm just sad that so many days are wet and gray. gray is a pretty color on some, but its not the sky's best color, if you know what i mean. and this nasty rain. who's with me on wanting to curl up in front of the fire with good music or a good book. or sit on comfy couches with good friends or a good movie. blankets and hot cocoa. i'm thinking warm thoughts. Mmmm.

i have another job interview today. i don't know much about it, but the lady called yesterday and asked if i would like to interview. sure, why not. we shall see. it would be kinda sweet to return from the holidays to a start a new job. i bet being distracted with learning a new job would make one forget that it is nasty outside.

i hear myself and i realize that i sound sad. let me assure you, i'm not. i'm just dreaming of the hour when i'll be sitting at home with my beautiful roommates, in our cozy living room. rather than in the office in front of the computer.

a week from monday i'll be in FL. now that is something to look forward to. i can almost feel the sunshine warming me to the bone. that and i'll be with my family. that is exciting.