being comfortable

tonight i realized something about myself. i feel comfortable making others feel uncomfortable. i'm sure that sounds awful, but hear me out. i like to talk about poop and the like because it is not "socially acceptable." i think i do it to protect myself from uncomfortable situations. if i make the uncomfortable comfortable, then i feel comfortable. maybe that is strange. but i think this is quite an amazing insight into myself. i like to point out gross things about myself (that others would not) because then it's out in the open, everyone knows i'm gross, and i don't have to act like it's not true.
i just watched the movie hitch. and now i'm analyzing myself in terms of dating. now this is a scary subject (and potentially funny).
if i can make myself feel normal in the midst of all my idiosyncrasies then i can breathe. but then the other is completely turned off. i need help.
i'm thinking of several specific instances. there was the time when i made sure to point out what i thought was ring worm on my arm to a guy. or the time that i specifically pointed out that i drooled on myself. i know that these things are not attractive. Ahhh! (i need to point out that in both of these situations i was not neccesarliy trying to pick these guys up, but still the principle remains. gosh, if i'm attracted to someone that is a whole different erin to analyze.)
i don't think i'm as gross as i make myself out to be. and i'm certainly not any grosser than the next. i just, for some reason, feel comfortable making others feel uncomfortable by presenting myself as some nasty girl who is really comfortable with her nastiness.
analyze that.