one of life's little dilemmas

i always long for down time... i just want to have time when nothing is required of me. today i had that. all afternoon i had that. i went roller blading and sat down by the lake for a while reading. oh so nice and sunny today was. but then i got home at like 4:30 and wanted something to do. what the heck. why can't i just chill. i want to be alone and then i am alone and i want to be with people. maybe i'm just unpleaseable. hmmm. ok now there are people here and i can't think. so i'll have to write more later.