today is the day

Happy 24 and 11 month birthday Mary.
One month until the quarter of a century bday.
Live it up sister.

hum.........

Do you ever just want to do NOTHING productive? Do you ever feel completely content to sit around and eat and laugh? That is how I feel today. Give me a comfortable couch some good eats and some good friends, I’m happy. Because of course, laughter will ensue. I love to laugh. I love to hear others laugh. I love to see others smile. I like to make others smile. I also love the sun and the stars. Sometimes I make myself laugh. Actually, all the time I do. This is what is so good about me. I’m ridiculously ridiculous. I laugh at myself, out loud, regularly. I also talk to myself pretty regularly. I like to whisper. I love mindless movies. A good book is nice, if I can actually start reading it. I love the beach at night, walking in the moonlight. I like being outside. I like being inside too. I like connecting with people. I like meeting people who know they are awkward and embrace it. I like meeting really unique people. I like meeting really normal people too. I like a good warm cup of coffee on a cool morning or night. I like a good cold cup of coffee on a hot day too. I like old friends. I like new friends. I like a good dark venue with an awesome live band. I like being apart of something that makes someone else really happy. I really like swimming, especially naked. Yep, that is a wonderful feeling. I like a good night’s sleep. I like strange dreams and trying to analyze them. I love to dance. I love kids and their fresh view on life. I like feeling princess-like. Life is good.

Well, that went quite a different way than planned. God is good. He reminds me of all the good things in life when I feel a bit down or confused. Seriously, I was thinking of posting my most recent questions about life… and out came a list of things I like. Wonderful. And with a lighter load I retire.

"Batman Begins" rocks my socks off.
I wanna see it again. :o)

being comfortable

tonight i realized something about myself. i feel comfortable making others feel uncomfortable. i'm sure that sounds awful, but hear me out. i like to talk about poop and the like because it is not "socially acceptable." i think i do it to protect myself from uncomfortable situations. if i make the uncomfortable comfortable, then i feel comfortable. maybe that is strange. but i think this is quite an amazing insight into myself. i like to point out gross things about myself (that others would not) because then it's out in the open, everyone knows i'm gross, and i don't have to act like it's not true.
i just watched the movie hitch. and now i'm analyzing myself in terms of dating. now this is a scary subject (and potentially funny).
if i can make myself feel normal in the midst of all my idiosyncrasies then i can breathe. but then the other is completely turned off. i need help.
i'm thinking of several specific instances. there was the time when i made sure to point out what i thought was ring worm on my arm to a guy. or the time that i specifically pointed out that i drooled on myself. i know that these things are not attractive. Ahhh! (i need to point out that in both of these situations i was not neccesarliy trying to pick these guys up, but still the principle remains. gosh, if i'm attracted to someone that is a whole different erin to analyze.)
i don't think i'm as gross as i make myself out to be. and i'm certainly not any grosser than the next. i just, for some reason, feel comfortable making others feel uncomfortable by presenting myself as some nasty girl who is really comfortable with her nastiness.
analyze that.

first of all, on this fine summer night, i'd like to tell you that there are just some movies that should be seen on the big screen. episode III is one of them. i was able to see this movie the other night. i wouldn't consider myself a star wars lover or junkie and i don't even know that much about it, but i do enjoy them. one doesn't go to see this movie for its incredible acting, but i'll give it my two thumbs up. and i'd probably see it again (if someone else paid for it). man alive, movies these days are a pretty penny. now i'm looking forward to batman begins, who's with me?

second of all, who is excited that summer is here? i laid out today and got a little crispy. no, i didn't wear sun screen. but i did buy some on my way home from laying out for next time. always prepared. yes, i do have what some might call a slight obsession with my own skin being tan. tan is not what i'd call myself tonight though, i'm more a glowing red color. luckily it doesn't hurt, it just looks a little silly. and life goes on.

a shout out to june. may the summer months go slowly and the winter be held off as long as possible.

workaholic

my job has made me a workaholic. i just turned in my time sheet for the last two weeks tonight as i was leaving the office at 10:30 pm. only 102 hours over that last two weeks (and that doesn't include anything that i do at home, because, what's the point, i'm salary.) i'm not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me, i actually enjoy what i do. but i do miss my friends and all my old commitments. and i hate that when i'm getting home my roommates are going to bed.
i'm hanging on to some shred of hope that my load will soon be lighter.
so here's to the weekend... two days to relax to the max. i raise my cup to you, weekend.